the phrase that I'm so commited to now

你会生气难道我就不会吗？你会难过我不会吗？
你真的太自私了。
我没话说。
you know something?
you are just the same as others.
I thought you were different..
I'm a human too you know.
I'm tired..
I'm sick of myself..
my heart is sick..
All I wanted was just to have some one there for me when I need them..
but why is it just so hard?
Guess people can never give you the shoulder to lean on.
nobody cares anyway..
But you know .
God can hear my midnight cry..
He is the only one who know that my heart is broken..
only He knows..
how much burden am I being blessed by..
The pain beneath my every breath..
every heart beat..
the smile that brought no happiness ..
the eyes that are filled with sorrow and depress nowadays.
Where went the cheerful JLoh?
god.. can you pls give me back my happiness??
I'm slipping of the edge of anxiety through a tough month ..
I kept my spirits up for the past 8 years..
Happy was all I can feel and want to be close to..
I forget and forgive so easily that it doesn't mean anything..
but what happened..
don't tell me a year kills all the hard work .. all the happiness you fight to keep..
All the forgotten sad stuff is coming back to me..
No..
JLoh..
Hold on.
Do not hesitate to keep spreading all your happiness till the last day of your life.
Yes..
this is my decision.
Thanks to the friend that I once thought was so close and so real.
realizing that you were the chosen one. =)
makes me grow stronger..
tears of diamonds were shed for you.
be proud.
JLoh

I'm Sad

So dissapointed today..
planned a surprise thingy for kei but she..
haiz..
so freaking dissapointing..
do you know how many people sacrificed their faces for you?
do you know how hard I tried to make it seemed as we're okay?
tried so hard to make it up to you ?
and this is what we get in return..
it's just like betrayal ..
I don't know what to say anymore..
this morning..
you told me how cool you were making a fool out of us..
Great..
do you know how sad I was to know that?
how many sorry-s did we say to you.. wanna count?
let me see..
how much effort we put into the sincerity of apologizing..
Thanks to you.
I can see it clearly now..
Happy Birthday ..
hope you had fun killing the joy in us.
JLoh ( currently in a bad mood after this incident )

Birthday Back post

Caption says: Wei Don't Sue Me Arh~! hahaha..

It's a back posttt~! I'm not late k..
hahaha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAYSON ~!
LOL..
Hope you had a wonderful amazing fun crazy enjoyable birthday ytd =)
haven't seen u in ages le.
haha
okayy..
You're old now..XD
hahahaha..
still must guai guai arhhh
XP
Gosh now it seems that I'm the old one..
hahahha
mm..
Ur birthday present is...
HUGGG ~!
hahahaha..
bo $$ lately can't get u present..
haha
forgive me bah=X
lolz..
anyway..
may god bless you and keep you and may His blessings surround you each and everyday =)
take care~
Once again..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!
JLoh

Birthday post !! =D

Tomorrow is da day !!
The 10th of July..
the day she has been waiting with joy and excitement..
SEE KEI... HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!
Weee~!
haha..
although don't know why today you got so mad and what others told you about..
I was really talking about your birthday present my dear..
LOL..
I guess it's some misunderstanding..
anyway so sorry to make you get so mad yah..
although I know she won't read this.. but really hope she know the truth about this=)
I love you darling !!
hehe..
the song I wrote for you
last part in English version..
You are so beautiful and yet so wonderful..
dedicate this song, to see kei my dear .. I love you..
hehe.. weee~!
why did I just post the last part?
because I don't want to wait for it to load..
and this version is not in her card.. haha
she had my original chinese version..
full length..
this is just a english version for her if she comes around to my blog.
which is quite impossible actually..
anyway..
haha
XD
listen to this bahh..
Dedicated to See Kei..
Happy Birthday Girl..

JLoh is annouced Alive..

Ahah ! Sorry peeps ! I'm back now.. XD
have been too busy lately..
so much happened these days..
My parents quarreled in the middle of the night which I had to Cry for 2-3 hours non stop..
Grandparents are here in KL from Johor..
Cousins from UK, Japan and uncle aunts from New Zealand are gathering here =D
so happy about it..
had 3 wonderful reunion dinners and a going to have a birthday dinner tonight celebrating my grandpa's birthday..
Had a mini concert yesterday haha..
or should I say a perfect performance thanks to Sam and Justine =)
I played the piano with my 2 fabulous violinist..
great time we had..
mm..
that's about all then..
update more when I have more time..
haha
BTW.. I dropped places from 5th to 9th !!!
and guess what..
TOMORROW'S THE BIG DAY !!
mom's gonna get the report card and scream like mad knowing I dropped places..
haha
jkjk..
take care fellas..
Love,
JLoh

Taggg

I got tagged AGAIN ! hahaa..
here it goes ppl.
I've just tagged u !! XD
1. Wee Jien
2. Vanessa
3. Yi Jun
4. Joleen
5. Rocky
6. Jee Yan
7. Sherine
8. Kath
9. Jane
10. Sky

1. Would you date number 5?
(Rocky) , Best Friends are good enough =D

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash.
(Vanessa) Yeee.. won't gua.. hahaha.. choi choi choi..

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend.
(Jane) Expected XP wait wat does that means?haha..jkjk saja la.. we have diff taste ppl !!

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
(Jo) I would be very happy to see her !! YAY !! I MISS YOU JO !! T.T.

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
(Wee Jien) mm.. if he acts weird.. I'll act even more weird for him to feel normal XD

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
( Jun , Kath , Sky ) 3noes 10. haha.. but it's IMPOSSIBLE. I bet sky will end up being botakXD

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and ask you to go to a concert.
(Sherine) HUG HER TIGHTLY.. eyes filled with tears.. THANK YOU !! LET'S ROCK IT !!

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
(Sky) Now.. THAT IS SO WRONG ! hahaha..

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
(Jo) I will CRY IN PAIN.. and make her bring me with her =D

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
(Kath) We'll be having fun playing hide and seek with the cops I guess XD

11. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
(Rocky) GO RIGHT AHEAD ! Weeee~! will you rocky? XD

12. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
(Jane) We've always been on the same bus =D we go around together by bus.

13. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can't sleep.
( Jee Yan ) ask her to call her boyfriend XP

14. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
( Jee Yan ) That would be freaky ? hahahaha.. to the groundd.. hyper man.. haha

15. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
(Wee Jien) I would rub off his tears and lend him my shoulders =D always here for u dearie..

16. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal.
(Vanessa) It's time dear.. hahaha. waiting for your meal arhxx..

17. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
(Jo) I would probably get too excited and decides to kidnape it from Jo.. hehe..

18. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.Lol.
(Jo) I'll kiss her like mad !! not that I'm not now.. hahaha.. LOVE U Jo even if u dun get me and X-Box !! hahaha..

19. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!
(Jane) wow.. that would be fun .. hahaha.. expected! she's like a cute lil kid.

20. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.
(Jien) He's perfectly FIT !! you'll never go overweight dear =D

21. Number 7 looks lonely!
(Sherine) ain't it obvious that I'll teman her? hahaha.. dun worry I'm here for u =)

22. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.
(Vanessa) I'll just RUN AWAY CRYING LIKE A BABY ! hahaa.. no la.. kiss her on the chicksXD

23. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
( Jun and Rocky ) will you?? hehehe.. I would be touched =D but it won't be a surprise anymore would it?

24. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black.
(JeeYan) I wonder how you'll look with perfectly black hair.. hmm..

25. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.
(Jane) Got'cha ! haha.. no la. hugs her tightly in my arms.. just cry baby.. cryy..

26. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once!
( Jien, Jun , Rocky, Jee Yan ) not a bad idea.. hahaha.. COME ON !! Come get me !! Nenenibubu.. muahahahaha..

Jay's Mixed Song.. XD

I saw a video sum1 made singing Jay Chou's song making 14 songs link together.
So I wanted to sing just 1 part of it.. which is the chorus..
Here it goes =) it's really unpleasant.. haha.. the back of the song could eventually hurt your ear.. haha.. because it has a super high pitch.. XD which I tend to.. RUIN IT perhaps? XP.. forgive me ppl.. uploading for the fun of it.

Scary pm

Ahhh~! went to pasar malam today..
bump into a few of my pretty girl friends..
but..
IT WAS A SCARY DAY !!
ahhh~!
1st.. there was a STALKER !
2nd.. I had to walk myself home after calling my mom n dad for about 20 times.
T.T.
the dark boulevard and stalker behind scared the hell out of me..
Paranoid now..
TRAUMA!
HELP !
Ahhhhhh~!

Hope

Am I left hopeless?
=) a smile covers the scar.
I wanted so much to see the light in the darkness but can I ?
I will never be a part of you all, I do not dare to hope for either.
I know no matter how hard I try to fit myself in.
This is Fate. This is the end.
Thank you so much for have sometimes took care of me.
But I will stop trying to fit in for now I know, I can't.
And I shall not try any harder and accept the fact.
I am but a fool =)
I will face it with bravery and courage.
No tears shall be shed for I shall not care.
I can see clearly now.
Dim the lights . The darkness concurred .
Even Mother Teresa had felt this.
I am now experiencing the loneliness deep inside.
who will know?
who might care?
Even the friend that I thought was the closest to me , she too do not understand otherwise she could not have hurt me so deep.
But this is Life.
Thou I shall stop the effort and say my prayer.
Anxiety.

Bible verses

Love bible verse :
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:13

Hope bible verse:
"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you."
Psalm 39:7

Forgiveness bible verse:
"Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved."
Psalm 55:22

Bible verse for TEENS =)
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12

We Should Always Remember..
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 3:16

Lastly,
The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
Psalm 23.

Verse of encouragement

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6

Bible verse of the day

Yes, LORD, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you; your name and renown are the desire of our hearts. My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you. When your judgments come upon the earth, the people of the world learn righteousness.

Isaiah 26:8-9

Bless me today

Bless Me Today !
I Love You.

IOI

Went IOI mall today with daddy..
he had meeting with his friend..
And so I went to the clothes section to had a look.
Guess what?
I forgotten to bring my $$.
So I was left Drooling over the clothes .
haha..
I could only hold and feel them probably imagine how happy I would look having the chance to own it. haha.
had breakfast at Old town coffee house.
and Lunch at somewhere.
Had quality time with my family =)
the satisfaction melts the heart.

Pictures and Captions

THE MID VALLEY TRIP STARTS By..
when we found Jien in MPH.. ehem.. actually I couldn't recognize him XD SORRY LA.. hahaha.. I couldn't recognize him but Ke Xin could. She keep convinsing me that Jien was Jien. and I was like.. NO WAY.. He should be taller.. XP.. then in the end.. okay.. I lost.. hahaha.. found him.. he bought his ghost story book.. ehem. bedtime story ehz? XD
then, Jien and I had a BIG HUG.. cause we missed each other too much.. haha..
after that.. we headed to NOWHERE.. lolz.
wondering where should we look for Hui Yee JM and YQ.
anyway we thought of getting lunch right after meeting up with them so..
we saw the Green lovely chair.. XD.
we head to it and got ourselves comfortable with it.
so we start our usual lil chats.
After a long lil chat became a long chat.
THEY REACHED ! WEE~!
so we headed to gardens for our lunch.
oohhh.. XXL chicken chop Rocked ! haha.
I wonder how big is JM's stomach under that skinny lil girl.
right after meal.. she asked if any1 wanna eat again !
wow.. amazing as I was really full.. haha.
anyway we went shopping around.
and I had the same idea as I always had, the Fitting Room runway.
haha.
so Ke Xin and I went fashion showing .
after the torture and suffering of Jien to just go all over his ghost story waiting for us the girls to finish our fashion show.
We headed for more food.. amazing ehz?
haha. and lastly we headed home.. wee~!
Oh Come On. youdon'tthinkwe'llleavewithoutcamwhoringdoyou?
You're So SMart !
We camwhored all the way in the Lrt till home.
Ehem. no1 was staring okay? haha.. because we were the only ones on the LRT ! yay! =D
that's all..
here comes Photos and captions.

Her.. The White Angel =D pretty ain't she?

Me. FAT ! T.T.

Suddenly Emo Strikes . oh no~! Stop kidding us.. hahaa.

Jien was like FASTER FASTER I GTG! haha..

Promoting the JLoh Rox To Da Max Lrt Card.

Madness Controlled Our Minds.

Picture perfect. left Me Xin Jien

Wee~! my head looks big! XP.

They look like a couple do they? XD nyahaha.

Hey.. I'm happy okay? look at my smile.stop asking.. I'm just tired. lol

I'm just acting stupid.. n she's staring at my silly face.

Picture taken by pro JLoh . model Jien.

In The Lrt. Xin Me Jien.

Taa Daa~! THE END. =D

Stop It

Why can't any1 just stop hating people or disliking them?
is it a crime to not do so?
won't you get sick of hating people back stabbing people?
Goshhh..
Cut It Out Larhx..
how many people you back stab a year?
Count it and I bet it'll be a Great Amount..
sick of it.
Go Away.

You Are My All In All

You are my strength when I am weak You are the treasure that I seek You are my all in all Seeking You as a precious jewel Lord, to give up I'd be a fool You are my all in all Taking my sin, my cross, my shame Rising up again I bless Your name You are my all in all When I fall down You pick me up When I am dry You fill my cup You are my all in all Jesus, Lamb of God Worthy is Your name Jesus, Lamb of God Worthy is Your name You are my strength when I am weak You are the treasure that I seek You are my all in all Seeking You as a precious jewel Lord, to give up I'd be a fool You are my all in all Taking my sin, my cross, my shame Rising up again I bless Your name You are my all in all When I fall down You pick me up When I get dry You fill my cup You are my all in all Jesus, Lamb of God Worthy is Your name Jesus, Lamb of God Worthy is Your name

Family Camp Rocks To Da Max!

When I say JLoh you say Rocks !
JLoh Rocks ! JLoh Rocks !
When I say Yellow You say Rocks !
YELLOW ROCKS YELLOW ROCKS !
woo hoo ~!
Family camp is so so worth it .
It is totally Educational yet ENJOYABLE !!
I learned so so much through this camp
I think I've grown alot..
and now it's time to make it happen !
As they say Action Speaks Louder Than Words !
we have to live it out to show it.
Yes..
I love you people !
I love you dad and mom !
I love my family
and love my home .
Church is my 2nd home.
A place where I get nourished and where my mental can rest and come close to my father in heaven
Hallelujah praise the lord
Thank god for letting me enter this camp .
Now I can see clearer.
You have answered my prayer in such a wonderful way.
You gave us parents , you loved us first and you gave us the right to love others like how you loved us.
I will try my best to learn to live with more love and give more love which is sacrifice.
I believe through this camp, many have gain the courage to mend the broken gap between one and another , between family ties , friends.
We learn NEVER use others .
We learn to respect , praise , share and to appreciate etc.etc.
Love is just so great
thank you lord.
You are so amazing.
This camp is such a blessing for me.
It gave me strength and taught me well.
Take care
love,
JLoh

Camp

Caption : MISS ME BABY ! XP

Miss Me baby !!
XP
I'm going to my family camp today
=D
hope everything goes well..
Pray for my safety people !!
haha
Don't miss me too much yahz XP
I'm so going to miss the ones viewing my blog..
that's right ! It's You YOu and YOU !!
haha
okay laa..
update it when I'm back
My camp is in Gohtong Jaya which is close to Genting
wooo hoo ~
I'm soooooo EXCITED !
yeah !!
take care
Muax!
JLoh

Su Fes

OMGOSHHHH T.T
I went to Su Fes book store today to get Kah Yan a bible
Ahhhh~!
There is soooooooooooo many things I want to buy weihz!!
Feel like buying the whole store.
haha
If I were to have billions n millions
XD