感动

突然间，
想用华语打部落格。
其实最近真的想了很多， 我祷告祈求得到的答案让我好感动。
首先，
我学会了为需要的人代祷，为着不喜欢的人流泪，为朋友的家人甚至为国家祷告。
真的好不可思议。
神啊！你真奇妙！
我祷告求告主，我说：“ 神啊！求你让我看见并让我知道如何带领你的羊。”
在那刹那，
我的眼开了，
我感谢神他让天使天军围绕着我。
他天天在我无助时，
他看顾保守。
在我疲乏困倦时，
他赐下力量。
我要感谢的人真多，
我要感谢教导并一直给于付出的传道及导师，愿神赐福给你们。
在这里也要感谢吵吵闹闹的一群小瓜：倩，历，馨，律，崇，谦。。。
虽然你们很恐怖但也让我的生活增添了不少乐趣。
谢谢豪，涌和安，因在我最悲伤的时候，你们愿意听我说并给我鼓励，感谢神！
感谢茵，让我能够向你学习。
感谢姐，你如同一个从天上掉下来的天使般，不断地爱人。
感谢那无比慈爱的上帝无时无刻保守着我，倾听我的心，向我说话，教导我一天比一天更加的像你， 更加的爱你，让我能服侍你 并亲近你，也让我学会关怀并爱你所爱的，也与你同看世界。
我们爱，因神先爱我们。
感谢赞美主！ 哈利路亚。
您是那无所不知，无所不能，无所不在的神。
凡有气息的都要来赞美你！
现在， 我又得着力量去带领你的宝贝们。

feeble

Why are people's heart so fragile?
why think so negatively when they don't even know what depress really does mean..
God..
is god a joke to you ?
You leave god because someone say something bad about you..
and u say , since everyone don't seem to like me.. I shall leave god..
what does that suppose to mean?
DEVIL ! LEAVE ME ALONE ! And LEAVE MY FRIENDS ALONE!
BTW.. They will not be alone without you devil.. They have god beside them..
People..
if you are to leave Your Mighty Lord just because of some little devils trick..
you are too weak to be blessed..
if you are to leave Your Shepherd because of being scared of the devils wicked smile,
you shall be eaten by the wolf and lions growling in hunger..
this is all..
Do not be weak..
Stand up..
You have your Powerful God on your side..
there is Non other like him..
whom shall I fear when I know that my God is here with me?
Wake Up !
Don't fall into Satan's trap..
Hallelujah praise the lord..
save my fellow bros n sis in christ..
Amen.

Ke Xin Bday

Really sorry to ke xin.. haha
coz this year was kinda bz..
so actually didn't give out too much of a think on your birthday..
SO SORRY !!
but really hope u like the bottle ^^
hehe..
my dear..
we have been friends for so long as I can remember..
I guess everything that should be said has been said..
what should be done has been done.. =)
hehe..
I guess the more we go through , the stronger our bonds get..
somehow..
when I'm together with you.. I feel safe ^^ I feel that there is some one who can understand me..
when I'm with you.. I feel like doing something for you..
haha..
I pray to god today. that Mighty Lord would take care of you and bless u with blessings flowing like waterfall..
If a tree was to be a blessing.. I would want to give you a jungle my dear..
Happy Birthday Girl !!
ur older now XD
take care yahz!
God bless ya!
JLoh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PPL !!

Happy Birthday Andrew!! XD
thought I would forget ehz?
Although I didn't wish u in class.. but I wished u here rite?
paiseh la.. hahaha
16TH - Andrew
24th - Pastor Gene
27th - Ke Xin & Yeing Mao
May - Jun Lv
n so on.. have to wait till I check XP
take care ya ppl !!
hope u have a wonderful meaningful birthday n of course
A Blessed Birthday =D
hugs!
JLoh

Quote Of The Day

Don't trouble troubles untill trouble troubles you.

nice ehz? XD

JLoh Rocks!

SCREAM !

AHAH! WENT TO TIMESQUARE THEMEPARK !! XD
Went to Timesquare themepark the other day..
okay admit it !!
it was quite long ago.. XP
anyway..
Sing came n fetch me bringing along Eric and Feng..
so.. we head to da Sri Petaling LRT station..
and there we go !
took the LRT to Sungai wang.
the main plan was actually to roller skate.. but.
I felt uncomfortable with the dark atmosphere with ppl who were commiting FASHION CRIME !
okay.. calm down now..
so we head to take sum sticky pic.. ahh~! to think of it now.. Sing still owe me the pics.
anyway..
Yay!! nice pic were taken ^^ happieee~!
then we had an idea of going in to da themepark to have sum fun..
so there we go.. WEEE~!
1st we went to play da bumper car.. ( I noe I'm childish XP )
then we challenged the ROLLER COASTER !!
muahahahahhaha~!
yeshh !! it was fun !! b4 knowing some facts..
just then Meng Leong phoned me..
ML : where are u huh ? come to my area aka timesquare never tell me laaa~?!
Come with who? bla bla bla.. MANY QUESTION .. lazy to type XD
JLoh : ermm.. I'm on the roller coaster.. I guess I'll say bye b4 dying.. XD
BYEEEEEE~!
after getting off the roller coaster .. we quickly ran n sat again ..
2nd time.. meng leong manage to see me b4 da roller coaster starts again..
but b4 that.. 3 guys were like flirting with me n Sing..
Ew.. DISGUSTING ..
Guys were like : Hey ! where are u from?
I'm like : hello?! KL ?!
Guys : I'm from thailand
JLoh : MADE in THAILAND laaa.. XP.. if u get wat I mean..
then they were like standing really close so I persuade Eric to change place with me.. XP
great !! b4 sitiing on the roller coaster.. they actually wanted to sit with me n sing..
Nonsence.. of course we won't let them sit with us.. so we're like.. errr... go away..
haha
luckily they wanted to syok themselves so they sat at da 1st row..
After the 2nd roller coaster ride.. we went down n I got sad.. T.T..
cause my DNA MIXER wasn't open .. >.<
total cramp .. numbness on his butt and my hand..
I pushed him to the end n he was like.. weihz!! my butt cramp edy la!
then I was like .. NO CHOICE! I can't move either!
after 360degree we took the dare to sit on the hammer !!
weee~!
Feng cried her lungs out !! hahaha..
she was so freaking SCARED..
she was like.. MOMMY !! STOP ! TING ! HENTI ! TENG !
stop in all language came out from her.. hahahha.. funny rite? shhh ~! dun let her noe.. wahahahaha..
soonnn.
the fact was out..
we saw the poles holding the roller coaster shook like mad!
omgosh ! I actually sat on that?!
then we took our picture of the day!!
which is the one above
3 girls =D
take care ppl..
muax!
JLoh

Life

Life should be filled with Love, Hope, Faith and Joy =D
suddenly there was a touch in my heart to tell u this.. XD
so.. remember
Life is filled with challenges but also filled with the 4 main support that makes u walk on ..
I wanna shout out loud..
I LOVE YOU JESUS..
N I Love you THE SAD ONES out there ^^
You BELOVED ones!
you're just so lucky !
Muax!
Easter day tmr.. be sure to think back and praise & thank our mighty Lord..
hallelujah praise the lord !
JLoh

Sorry for the late reply tag Jo !!

01. Compose a list of your top 15 sexiest famous men.
02. Collect one picture of each guy on your list.
03. Post them in your journal.
04. Tag 5 people to do the same.

AHHH ~! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO JO !!
ALL DA ONES ON UR LIST ARE THE SAME AS MINE !! T.T..
but I'm gonna add another 5 sexyyy men XD
which is
ARASHI !!










so I guess I'll jump to tag XP
charlene
mei si
rocky
June
Sam

Verse of the day

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

I cried in my dreams

Frankly nowadays..
I've been having dreams about myself dying..
I cried in my dreams cause of the touching moments at the last few minutes in my life.
and when I woke up today..
I thought of a song that can actually describe what I dream t about..
Song from simple plan
Untitled..
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Tear drops in my eyes.

The more tears I shed The More I care..
The more tears I shed The Larger The Pain inside me ..
The more tears I shed Smaller pieces my heart is torn into ..
I'm scattered in pieces..
My heart is broken into too many little pieces that I guess it can't be put back in it's place..
THE END..

God, are you there?

Lord,
I'm seeking for you in my prayers..
I'm waiting for your answer..
today.. I've got answers from many people..
but is that your voice talking to me?
or is that a trap?
Lord,
are you there?
are you listening to what I'm voicing out ?
can you feel the pain I'm going through?
please tell me what to do..
Friends told me..
Do not frown..
cheer up.. You've done such a good job..
warm hugs were given to me today..
lord.. is your spirit hugging my heart today?
Jesus .. my lord.. my shepherd..
you melted my heart today did you?
allow me to ask..
please do not get angry.
were your beside me today?
I felt all the warmth today..
I got my angels surrounding me today..
but god..
the emptiness in my heart is getting stronger..
it's controlling me..
SAVE ME ..

T.T.

don't tell me you wish to save me but you can't..
tell me you won't give up on saving me..
tell me you'll stay with me..
I Love You My Lord My Savior My Comforter.
JLoh

I'm DEVASTATED

I'm devastated ..
My heart is like torn into pieces..
I don't know WHY ..
I'm dead.. I'm in such sin..
lord..
Please show mercy ..
cover me with your precious blood and wash away all my sins..
Lord..
This is ALL a Big mistake..
how can this be?
T.T..
something really really sad happened..
I'm confused now..
and in guilt if I am wrong..
my sheep cried over some things that it looked as if I caused it all to happened..
I'm so sorry to my beloved teacher..
Don't hate me please..
It's ALL TRUE..
but I didn't know there were so much inner ideas that I never knew..
Although I'm right..
and wrong at the same time..
I'm in guilt..
it is as if I shouldn't have told the truth as if I've betrayed them..
is the devil living in me?
LORD..
I give it all to you..
lord I'll let go..
but please lead the way..
please let me know what to do..
Please not let everyone hate meeee..
please show mercy..
Hallelujah praise the lord..
I'm in guilt and I'm devastated..
I can't sleep for the night again I guess..
kill me bahz..
Night..
JLoh

Love

Love, it is so amazing.. it is so painful but yet so sweet..
deep in everyone of us..
we are in love..
and listen here .. you're beloved at the same time in love ..
feeble lil girl asked me a question..
you think that he likes me??
this is what I told her..
Yup.. but..
what I meant was, everyone of you like everyone around you..
it's just the amount of like you have for them makes the difference. Is is confusing? it's like if I like A B C D E all of them .. but If I like A more so it becomes as what everyone says I love A.. but if I like E incredibly less this makes the word everyone says - hate..
okay hate is a strong word ( as my English teacher says ) so I guess you could put it as dislike. agree? haha.. you may not agree but this is what I think..
Later On,
I was astonished for knowing that theory of mine really make things turn out different with everyone else.. which is..
when you look at everything in a different way.. your world becomes more beautiful ..
how should we look at things?
I was told by a friend as I was praising another person for his talent and beauty in him.. she told me.. is there anything that you think is ugly? or is not good about anyone?
I say yup.. but after I took another thought through it..
Okay I guess.. not much.. but if I think it's bad.. it's because I'm going to correct them ^^
for their own good.. XD as old people says..
well.. to me..
everything has their positive side.
Everything could be all wrong, the whole world can be against you,
People may hate you or you just don't know what's going wrong with you . BUT no one can control your happiness.. no one can take away your appreciation for this world for everything / everyone around you..
so think about it..
even if you keep loosing things like watches hp bla bla bla..
think of the things you still have..
too much
really too much.
be thankful ^^
it makes your world turn into a wonderful place..
A beauty hidden behind the curtain which you have to open to see..
Be Brave ..
Take The Chance And Make A Change..
take care everyone..
god bless ya today..
You Are Loved By Your God Your Lord.. as well as me ^^
as I told you you are beloved and at the same time your loving someone.. because everyone loves everyone.. just a slight difference of the amount..
* a sudden touched in my heart ..
a song to share called amazing love ..
and for Chinese song .. 深深愛你
Love,
JLoh

just some random post

A Lover Of Scarfs XD

Last Christmas was full of excitement and a memory to be remembered forever ^^

after the haircut.. T.T.. MY HAIR !! Ahhh~!

before the haircut =D

In camp XD I've got nothing better to do plus the lights were amazing..marvellous I would say^^

Recharged

My blog have been left to die for some time..
haha
glad that it's back ehz?
XD
well.. it's the holidaysss !!
have been longing for it to come and now.. IT'S HERE ! weee~!
mm..
Went back to my grannies on the 16th .. at 1st I was forced to go back ( a lil willing ) but then later on as I crawled into da really comfortable seat.. I come to realize that going back was the right choice =) thx sam.. owe u loads.. although you convinced me with a raucous voice..
then..
we had fun eating chocolate buns chatting watching Arashi.. hahaha
Arashi Arashi For Dream
hahaa.. ahhh~! I'm missing it now..
then we played the game that I invented.. fineee..
I admit.. it's kind of a silly game I guess.. but come on it's fun right?
* Sam nods * XP
okay.. it's a dim sum + kung fu game
1 word.. FANTASTIC
Further on , we had a hour nap b4 reaching Kluang just to reenergize ourselves.. haha
as we got back to Kluang and parked our car.. we got our lazy bums out of the car still in a blur case.. we gave a big SMILE and greet our grandpa and grandma.. although it was raining..
but WE'RE HAPPY !! that's all that counts.. =)
hmm.. we were there around 5pm..
yes it could be the time being in the car..
we got confused by our stomach .. not sure whether it was feeling hungry or we could wait for dinner to cum in 2 hours time..
but anyway I decided to save the space for dinner .. and yes it was worth a wait..
the mouth watering dinner !!
we had lots of delicious servings that night..
I was satisfied .. haha
meanwhile when we got home.. we had fruits.. all kinds of different fruits and gong gong even bought ice cream just for us knowing that we love eating ice cream.. T.T.. * touched *
haha.. okay.. so this means.. EXERCISEEE !!
to keep a fit posture.. we must EXERCISE.. not another word I started to work out ..
after some exercise had a cooling bath n off we go to bed..
2nd day.. wat a long post ehz? hahaha..
after having Big Pao for breakfast ..
Dad and I played our all time favourite TABLETENNIS..
woo hoo~! it's been long baby..
I was so excited to play tabletennis for I don't usually have the chance to play in school or any other place.. so this is like a one in a few months when I come back to Kluang..
Ahah !! I WON !! sorry dad.. haaha.. guess I've grown stronger and harder to beat nowadays..
don't worry you can be the 1st runner up in the the world..
and I can be the world unbeatable champion XD
after that had lunch at sum place which I ate Curry Mee with yong taufu.. ahah.. caught you drooling over there while reading my post.. hahahaa
in fact, I shared ice kacang with Sam for desert..
Jealous?? XP
okay.. as we got back.. I was tired.. so I went for a long nap.. and when I woke up it was 4-5pm so straight away I went to look for my cousin Sam..
but she was having her nap now.. so I went mooching about our compound ..
finally Sam awakes.. haha
but just then it was time for dinner..
yay ! we went to CHING HING aka A FOK.. XP ain't that weird? hahaha
then all the way there we were singing..
when I say Lucky You say Mad.. Lucky MAD! Lucky MAD ! x2 come on everybody let's scream !! WOOOO ~!
hahaha
craziness..
as we got there we ordered our favourite dish.. O JIEN ..
Muaahahahahaa.. IT ROCKS weihz!
then summo SATAY !!
pork , intestine , lamb and more..
it was so delicious that you cannot describe it with words..
but this comes with a result causing us to put on weight.
So to be sure that we maintain and not gain weight..
when we got home ..
we danceeee around the runway doing funny arashi moves not to forget laughing like mad and having stomach aches by laughing too hard.. haha
and exercise all we can by dancing, inventing new moves, madness running around, and by joking around .. and guess wat..
IT WORKED !!
haha..
forgot to mention.. theres actually tons of mosquitoes there.. but who cares.. I killed 15 in 1 morning.. hahaha.. another way of fun XD
after all the hard work it's another nice refreshing shower , homeworks including maths n add maths..
DA MOST MEMORIAL PART..
grandma teaching us how to knit..
omgosh.. this is sooooo fun !!
now I can't stop knitting.. although I'm still learning but somehow I'm addicted to it..
haha
hope I can knit something out of it soon ^^
thx ah mah.. YOU ROCK !!
You Are Soooo COOL !! I have da best Ah Mah in the world !!
woo hoo~!
so that's all.. today was da day I came back..
hurts me to leave.. and I was reluctant to leave..
but aw.. I guess I can come back again rite?
Ah Mah.. wait for me !!
I'm gonna come back whenever I have time !!
LOVE YOU GRANDMA GRANDPA GUGU BEBE SAM DAD AND MOM !!
you all rock my world!!
and Thank god for giving me such a wonderful family and such a wonderful time being with them..
god bless all of them..
may your blessings be with them now and forever..
Amen..

The Pain

The pain held under beneath my skin is over.. it's not there anymore..
thank god..
but u know.. 1 comes after another..
today I learnt something new..
When we were kids , our feelings are so pure, we are so innocent , when we do wrong or even if it wasn't our fault , we admit.. although we're scared of being punished, but deep inside us we know it's our wrong , we apologize sincerely and we're willing to be punished..
but as days go by, as time passes , as we grow... we tend to forget or loose the pureness in ourselves.. and here comes the devil speaks in an almost inaudible whisper to u.. then we start to lie..we convince ourselves that we're right.. so there we never admit we're wrong since then.. even worst.. we blame..
we blame others for anything that can be even if it seems as it's a total excuse..
I don't know what to do..
oh god..
shower Your precious blood over me..
forgive me , I am a sinner..
but lord.. I thank you..
You let me see how dark this world is..
but Lord.. please do tell me what should I do . What can I do to make me a better person..
Lord.. It's hard.. It's hard for me..
I can't make everyone like me .. because they are so hard to please..
I've got things I need them to do.. in polite I ask .. in return an obstacle.. an enemy..
in love I advice.. in debt I be in .. pain is what I go through..
but lord.. what behind all this is Your Blessings..
Lord.. it is as easy to know.. but it is so hard to walk through..
Through days in the desert , by days walking the rocky path,
many times I fall , but u held me in your hand..
Mighty Lord..
Bless Them All Today..
Hallelujah..
I Love My God My Lord My Shepherd.
Glory to the Lord..
JLoh

God Sent An Angel

It was the last day of the year 2008 ..
I went to church at around 9pm for a sharing session b4 heading towards KLCC to countdown..
During the sharing session..
I ought to be honest..
It's amazing.. It was as if Teacher could read my mind.. I guess it was god telling me to overcome my fears rather than trying to hide from it..
Teacher said..
I'm really dissapointed that alot among u all aren't sharing ur heart..
This is not what your heart is thinking..
At that very moment..
my heart broke.. It hurt.. For I know deep inside.. I was the one..
I was trying to cover up my pain my scar with a fake smile that seemed obvious ..
in the end I still didn't pour it out because it was over.. but I shared that.. 2008 truly was the year that I shed the most tears I had the most scars mentally and a year filled with depression and unbelieveble miracles..
A heartbroken year but also a year with massive impact into my life..
A year that made me live to the fullest.. A year that made me grow..
A year that let me noticed the pain was not all I felt..
A year I gained alot.. A year I gave alot..
Happiness and Sadness were just a line between..
I could have chose to be sad but I decided to be happy..
I cud have said I quit but I said I'm walking through it with His blessings in me..
People hated me for not knowing I was hurting for their good..
And loved me in the end for I had done it for their good..
They lost my faith in them for they have never care more than themselves..
They killed their friendships without mercy and begged for mercy to have it back..
People walk by without noticing the people in the shadows.. the ones that needed the most.. and still complain about their lives ..
Luxurious may mean alot but they may take alot from you too..
Learn to Forgive and Forget.. Or you shall not be forgiven either..
People ask for your forgiveness and you reject them without thinking..
but the other way around you call people mean when they won't forgive you..
You never care for others but u expect others to care for you..
You want others to give you a chance but you do not take the chance..
etc.. etc..
Through another year..
alot more learnt..
but to change.. is another experience and a life long practice..
2009 here I come !!

A Lesson Of Patience and Love

Phew..
through another practice..
haha.
nowadays everytime I hear the word practice..
I get scared..
lolz..
Because I believe there is much more they can do and they can do soooo much better than what they're doing now..
but from what I can see..
They just don't understand..
If they understood that all of this is For God.. It is ALL FOR HIS GLORY..
They won't be doing this like it's just a game and only if we're doing recording..
they 'll be all excited happy but they still don't do well..
This is what I call SELFISH.
I don't mean to say that.. but what else can I call this kind of act?
they joke around fool around and don't do well.. I'm all heartbroken .. wasting of time asking them to shut up and listen.. and they get mad at me?
What Can I do about this?
Let's not practice.. ain't that good?
aren't you happy now?
I'm so glad that I hold it down..and I thank god for not letting me shout n scream!
for my mind was exploding when they're all in noises..
Meanwhile , we still have one more fresh new scene to go.. but the first 4 is still a piece of CRAP when it is suppose to be an art filled with god's miracle ..
It's as if I'm on top of a hill that is so steep that I've got to grip tightly or not I'll fall..
everyone asked me to give up on the last scene.. give up on them..
I'm like no.. I trusted them.. I believed that they cud do so well..
and I am not going to doubt it.. it's not my decision to give up.. but god's decision..
only he can make me give up on them..
this is how things are now..
But I thank god..
why? Because at least he gave me these people..
Because without them.. there won't be this Musical..
and there will be no costume no nothing..
without them.. we will not be able to give anything to him after all his blessings.
I thank god for I can see full commitments from Jun Lv.. for he came from such a long distance for practices.. amazing .. god bless him..
n I thank god for giving me Eric Yan Yin Sing and Yee Kin .. they came nearly every practice..
I give praise to the lord for he have given me Mei Si , Sharon, SJ when I needed them the most..
I sing Hallelujah when god gave me Si Haw , SY and Rocky when I thought they couldn't help..
last but not least ..
I dance for he has given me Worm and Edgar to add up my faith..
In the end. I pray lord.. bless them all.. even when they didn't do well at all..
they haven't gave all their best.. as every1 can see..
they may be selfish when it comes to themselves..
but lord.. we are human..
Humans are weak..
Lord please show mercy and Be with us..
Don't give up on me..
lord , let me see ,let me see that you're smilling back at me..
Praise the Lord..
Lord, You Are My Shepherd.. From now towards the end of the world..
Hallelujah..
I end my blog today with a verse from the bible..
Song of Solomon 8:6
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.