Shutting down

I tried my best .
That's all I can give.
I feel so disappointed when I heard what X had to say.
Was that all?
I know I shouldn't expect so much, I'm not as good as V either.
All I wanted was to crush the wall between us.
I know you dislike me maybe you even hate me, that's why I tried my best to change what was wrong with me.
But I give up now.
I know there is nothing more I can do anymore.
I'm really tried, I tried so hard, I just can't do it, I'm so sorry.
I don't understand why am I shedding tears for this in the middle of the night, but maybe this is what you're worth .
Thanks for everything.
God bless you.