Thank you

Of All the EMO post I posted, you may think I'm a super sad , down , negative person who has mood swings right?
But SERIOUSLY, I'm not if you know me. haha
The reason my posts are mostly EMO'ish is mainly because I take blogging here as a place where I can sooth my feelings.
Alright,
I love all of you so much.
Those who care about me , who brings laughter and joy to me , whose smiles brighten up my days , whom always lend a helping hand and of course those who was always by my side when I needed em.
Most important, I wanna thank my god, my lord , my savior.
He is my shepherd.
Throughout my life there were times when I feel lost and weak, but He never fails to bring me back with His mighty love. His great love fills my heart with strength to move on. He nurtures me with his words and lead me back to his warmth. My Lord carries me on His shoulder when I couldn't seem to carry on , he takes my hand to show me how beautiful the world can be. He gave me courage and hope to do deeds for the society , to show pity and love for the needy.
He is JUST SO wonderful.
Thank you all that have been a part of me and will always be.
I pray that god would bless everyone of you and your families.
May we be ONE in Christ.
JLoh '2010.

Angry

Let your tears come. Let them water your soul. Eileen Mayhew

Do you know the feeling that seems like you've just been betrayed by yourself?
It's like something that you've hoped for so much and have been SO confident of , in a heartbeat , turned right into a deserted desert leaving you behind hiding in the dark corner whispering to yourself : " It's gonna be alright " when you know deeply in the core of your heart that NO IT'S NOT OKAY.
Everything is just ruined, gone and never you will have another chance to come again.
You get so angry and so depressed about yourself knowing that there is nothing that you can do anymore. You know it's not your fault. You prepared well , you prayed hard , you done everything you could and you did well every single time.
You feel a thunder striking towards the dark spot that your innocent helpless figure was hiding , the light shine onto that lil soul and at that moment you could see clearly how lost you are from the expression of your face.
You can feel every nerve in you, tense, but yet loosing grip as you feel like giving up. You know you can't give up but the voices in your brains and throughout your body refuses to react , they don't seem to want to follow your will that insists on moving on.
Maybe because of the sorrow that was too heavy to bear, the feeling of betrayal flooding your heart , the anger blinding your eyes , the pity expression your body holds towards receiving orders....
But at the end of the day,
the suffering will end.
The thunder and storm fades as well.
Feelings that were unbearable starts to retrieve.
The power of will takes control of everything once more.
And it all starts again.
Right from the beginning.
With no guarantee of a smooth journey,
with risk to be taken towards achieving your goals,
you chose to live.
This is life.
And I'm learning to walk it with the presence of God.
JLoh

Life

It has been a long way,
a tread long story too hard to be told.
All the memories and all the choices made,
warmth, love and care that was poured,
neither you or me could count.
Time passes as we grow,
maturity conquer as complication of our society elevates.
How we act shows how we were brought up,
to be or not to be ,
it was a path that leads to the end.
He rose from the dead,
he took away the end.
What was left was the beginning of life.
Things that He had done was not like anything that we could repay.
Love,
such a word,
what a way to live.
Love mother earth,
like how it loved us back.
Love your parents when you still can ,
for the nurture,
deep, tender and feeling of affection,
so great that you'll regret if you do not repay.
The emotional attachment ,
strong bonding that we are not willing to depart from,
came so sudden,
showed up unexpectedly.
Leaving us with the pain of regrets,
sorrow even depression.
But all that is left are broken pieces of memories,
some even empty , blank spaces that have never been filled.
Working overtime , spending out of pleasure,
having our own family, thinking maybe next time,
were the things that we were doing when they needed you the most.
Now they're gone,
before you realize that there was nothing you could say but all the stories when you were young.
Then you remember,
how they raised you up,
all the effort , hard work , heart broken moment when you left them.
You come to visit once or twice in a year,
just to make sure they don't call you everyday asking you to take good care of yourself
or come home for dinner.
Ignoring their calls ,
taking their multiplying love for you without any sign of appreciation,
abandon them when you think they're getting old.
Now,
the funeral has begun,
sitting on the chair staring at the black rectangular wood made container,
providing a space for the one who made so much sacrifice for you to lie.
This feeling,
so weird, so uneasy,
once again the familiar feeling of the 1st year going to school came back.
Mummy Daddy ! Don't go !
you were yelling,
they stayed for awhile,
although they left later on but you could always see them waiting for you after school at the door.
Now their not coming back this time.
Knowing you could not find them standing at your front door this time.
You wanted so much to hug them again just like how you ran into their arms when you were a child.
Filial love,
so long.
You stood up and went to the stage,
people expect you to say something about them.
But you stood there nervously thinking back how long have you not had a heart to heart conversation,
how long had you not had an interaction with them.
Piles of work, ocean like problems you're facing.
They seem so useless and meaningless now.
Ehem. you said.
The last time you could recall that make tears roll in you ,
was when you left for work.
When their shinny watery eyes gave you their blessings,
and you promised that you would always come back whenever you have time.
The next second,
you knelt down,
crying for forgiveness,
broke down in despair.
But there was nothing you could do now.
So why not we love and care for our parents when we still can,
rather than living in regrets after they pass away?
JLoh

"He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm..." Psalm 40:2

Truthfully

True enough I was running away from how I was feeling.
I knew somehow I wasn't feeling good, no, not a bit.
But I hung on, I stood still. Nothing could move me.
I smiled and gave good replies.
Somehow I even lost my stand in the end.
But the one thing I could not accept was - No one saw what I was going through.
My closest friends. They too did not know yet kept poking into the scar digging for more fun.
Yes. I was left with wounds.
But as I imagine myself on the beach.
There was only a pair of footsteps.
And those who could only belong to my beloved Lord.
Why was there only a pair you may ask.
Cause he was carrying me all the way.
Thank you lord.
I shall face it with courage and faith in you, Only You.
As I say this again and again.
Only You.
God bless ya'all.
JLoh

Lies

I miss you

I missed you when I look up to the sky.
Thanks for smiling at me from heaven.
I know you were always there for me.
Loves,
Jacq.

Hey

Less than 3 you lots ^^
This week, I went through so much.
I lost many friends .
But I found many too.
I can see clearly now.
Who are the ones who I really love and loves me back compared to those who thinks negatively about me.
It's kinda saddening that people think too much about a simple thing.
Maybe they've never been loved in such a way that people don't ask for paybacks.
Or maybe they've never had true friends that's why the way they think about people are just so disgusting.
Some just dislikes you from the start, so don't be surprised if they always back stab you cause it's just normal.
=D
Guess what people?
Just IGNORE them ^^

Love project

I find this song's lyric really meaningful =D

愛是兩人一張棉被
也是一人一瓶清水　都說對
愛是送一百枝玫瑰
也是讓濕地開花蕊　就OK

人間的青草地　需要澆水
內心的花園就不會枯萎
把最甜最好的滋味
散播到東南西北

什麼比love love love love love更美
愛讓人安心在夢中熟睡
Oh love love love love love 最美
美在每一個人都會

愛是讓人感動流淚
也是停止製造傷悲　都答對
愛是為好朋友解圍
也是為陌生人破費　就OK

愛肯付出的汗水
愛小王子的薔薇
愛旅途上的兄弟姐妹
愛所有青山綠水
愛所有難忘約會
愛上對愛的體會

只有love love love love love最美
她會變成最安全的堡壘
什麼比love love love love love更美
美在只要用心都會學會
不用什麼只為　只要用心體會
愛讓每人都有機會

HAHA

On a Sunny day, we went to a mall.
Suddenly we started to POSE !
Ready?? START!
Action!

Not ready? Or is that a pose? XP

Free modelling .. Better thank us XP

Unprofessional posers XP what's that anyway? haha.

Weeee~!

HAHA

Hey !! Let's count down together !!
Ready?! From 5 !

5

2

1

Yay ! We are done counting down from 5=D
Hey Wait . Am I missing something?
where's the 3 and 4 ?
Okay! Let's do it again. This time, let's do it in reverse order and we'll count till 6 okie? =D
Now.. 1 !!!!

2 weirdos left Acting cool? NOT . We are already cool XP

3 weirdos wearing shades in a shopping mall . LOL.

5 Sunnies and 5 perasan POSERS XP

6 Sunnies. Me = 1 , Jun = 5 .
Jun + Jac = 1 + 5 = 6 ! =D

Yay ! We are done counting down from 6=D
Hey Wait . Am I missing something?
1st, where's the picture for 1?
I can only hear you scream 1 ! hahaha
where's the 4 and 1 ?
See? It's the 4 again ! haha..

HAHA

Oh no~ My blog is seriously dead. HAHA.
but it's okay =D HAHA
LOL.. come on .. my title is HAHA right?
so of course I should add HAHA after every line XP HAHA.
These days, I noticed that numbers can always link the captions of my pictures.
How?
Kay larhx. LET pics and CAPTIONS speak. =D HAHA.

Désolé.

pourquoi ne pas s'arrêter larmes de couler.
Le son de mon cœur brisé se poursuit tout comme la pluie sous mes yeux se poursuivre.
Quelle est la raison?
J'imagine que vous ne saurez jamais comment inquiète un ami peut vous vers un autre.
Désolé.

I'm renewed

Congratz to Elim Youth Fellowship ! Happy 10th anniversary !
Cheers to the success of our celebration yesterday =)
Thanks to all the amazing people who had poured their hearts and soul for this event and of course the wonderful crowd who joined the celebration.
Hope all of you enjoyed yourselves . ^^
As this event will soon become history and pictures that were taken become ancient, things maybe forgotten. I thank god for giving me the chance to serve him.
Everything may fade one day. But His words will still remain.
He will always make a way, when there seems to be no way.
I am renewed today as He again fill me up with His LOVE and STRENGTH.
Thank you lord .
Hallelujah praise the lord.
May god bless everyone who are still in midst , who are still lost, who still cannot understand what love really means or where to find wisdom.
He Is Everything.
He is ALL you need.
Take care,
with love,
JLoh.

Nahr

AU YONG~ XDDDD
This is for you =D

SAVE WATER

Come On !
Let's Us All Learn to SAVE WATER as water holds a BIG part of our living.
We are living in a place that you may not have to worry about water supply.
But do you think that after 5 to 10 years
when you keep on wasting water ,
you still won't have to worry ?
YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG!
Even if you care about YOUR own water supply , do care about OTHER people's water supply please.
Don't be selfish and waste all the water you want when people are busy SAVING water.
It is just UNFAIR for you to do so.
If you think this still does not connects to you, then do not regret when the time comes.
Because you may be the first to die off.

Few Ways To Conserve W-A-T-E-R :

1. Avoid flushing the toilet unnecessarily. Dispose of tissues, insects and other such waste in the trash rather than the toilet.
2. Take shorter showers. Replace you shower head with an ultra-low-flow version. Some units are available that allow you to cut off the flow without adjusting the water temperature knobs.
3. Use the minimum amount of water needed for a bath .
   
4. Don't let water run while shaving or washing your face. Brush your teeth first while waiting for water to get hot, then wash or shave after filling the basin.
5. Run your clothes washer and dishwasher only when they are full. You can save up to 1,000 gallons a month.
6. Wash your fruits and vegetables in a pan of water instead of running water from the tap.
7. Use a broom instead of a hose to clean your driveway and sidewalk and save water every time.
8. Collect the water you use for rinsing fruits and vegetables, then reuse it to water houseplants.
9. Grab a wrench and fix that leaky faucet. It's simple, inexpensive, and you can save 140 gallons a week.
10. Turn off your taps TIGHTLY after use.

Keep a bucket in the shower to catch water as it warms up or runs.
Use this water to flush toilets or water plants.When you save water, you save money on your utility bills too. Saving water is easy for everyone to do.
LET'S BE COOL ! LET'S SAVE WATER ! =D
loves,
JLoh.

Shutting down

I tried my best .
That's all I can give.
I feel so disappointed when I heard what X had to say.
Was that all?
I know I shouldn't expect so much, I'm not as good as V either.
All I wanted was to crush the wall between us.
I know you dislike me maybe you even hate me, that's why I tried my best to change what was wrong with me.
But I give up now.
I know there is nothing more I can do anymore.
I'm really tried, I tried so hard, I just can't do it, I'm so sorry.
I don't understand why am I shedding tears for this in the middle of the night, but maybe this is what you're worth .
Thanks for everything.
God bless you.

好难受

难道是 因为受难节要到了吗 ？
我现在感到好难受哦 ！ 真的真的无法想象的无奈。
似乎就要窒息。
离崩溃应该不远了吧。
每天精神紧张，一日比一日背负更多的事物 。
虽说“今日事 ， 今日毕” 但，真的 做的得到吗 ？
神啊！除了你，没有任何人能了解我的感受，听到我内心的呐喊。
我知道，我所在经历的，无法与你相比，我不求你将它挪去，我只求您加添我力量，叫我不退缩，勇敢的面对。　
您所给我的，我知我无法报答，但愿将我一生的岁月都献给你。
你們沒有祈求以先、你們所需用的、你們的父早已知道了（太6:8）　
我知道，在我向您祷告倾诉前，你已监察了我内心深处。
今日，在我感到如此痛苦的这一刻，我仍然要赞美你　，因你的慈爱是何等的广阔高深，你所赐下的恩典是多么的有能力，你是创造宇宙万物的主宰，那无所不知，无所不能，无所不在，昔在，今在，永在的神。我的阿爸父，我感谢赞美你，你的带领让我看到您的荣光照耀全地。
愿神你的国降临，愿你的旨意行在地上如同行在天上。
荣耀都归主。
Jacq.

Tired

I just want some rest.
Why am I the one who always get nagged ?
Why can't I be busy?
If you were the one who is busy today and I keep nagging , would you be happy about it?
I just don't get why. WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND ME?
Why Why Why.
There is just so many Why in my head now.
I can't think straight anymore.
I had enough.
Jacq.

Who Loves You ?

If you are still bothered by this question " Who Loves You ? "
Today I have the right answer for you ^^
That is, God loves you. Not just all, I love you too. =D
You may think it's weird for a person that you may not know to say they love you, but guess what, God blessed me with the ultimate love to love you =) The strength to bless you today.
Summary :

God Loves you
&
I love you too

JLoh

Boredom

When you get bored in MSN ,
this is how your chat will become.
This is basically a conversation between a friend and I for about a minute when we ran out of topic to talk about. Here it goes~
JLoh : lalala
RZ : lololo
JLoh : lelele
RZ : lululu

Guess how it ended?
It ended because we ran out of vowels ! XD
Just a random post. haha.
Just thought of teaching people how to keep the conversation going while you take a breath and think about other topics to talk about .
Take care people!
Happy Chinese New Year!
Muax!
JLoh

New changes

Guess what?!
One of my darlings.. who is..
TAN SHEN WEN
dyed her hair !! Weee~!
It looked SUPER NATURAL !
A beauty she is =D
All Guys..
TAKE THE CHANCE WHEN YOU STILL HAVE ~
Kau her bah XD
but ,,,
GET MY PERMISSION 1ST
Muahahahaahahaha..
this is just a random post btw. XP

Look !

Look ! hahaha.. I didn't noticed that I have abandoned my blog for so long.. haha
the last post was like on the 13th.
Mm.
Let me just update abit about my friends ^^
2010 is truly a brand new year.
Chee Chung > Dyed his hair to BRIGHT BROWN ! but then straighten and dark brown. haha.
Si Yong > Is now a teacher in CHS !! Woo hoo~! U Go Bro~
Shen > Teacher in TTC . haha. Please don't kill the kiddies dear XD
Worm > As Lame As Possible XP
Edgar > Turning into a MAN as days goes by
Jun Lv > Changed his styleee.
Eric > My assistant in Fellowship =)
Sing > Improved in every way , really glad she found a target in life. Bravo~
Xiang Hou > Will end his studies this year . I'm waiting for you to come back patiently. hehe.
Shawn > Going to study in Taiwan, he's more outgoing nowadays, really proud of him. All the best in life Boy !
Jun > my super secretary. Bear with it darling ! I'm sure you will be just fine.
Jane > we somehow lost contact. T.T
Leong Mei Tiger XD > she's our formal fellowship teacher now. MUAHAHAHA.

well.. the list will keep going on if I don't stop here. haha
WAIT !
How about me?
Well..
Having a Magnificent life.
With Adorable friends.
And lighted with Wonderful care.
Loved by my One And Only Lord.
Will love others with love that had been showered over me.

Love ya'all
Jacq

Brain Burst

Oh wow.. have you ever had a feeling that your brain is about to BURST? haha
well. after 1 and a half week of school and alot of thinking and conclusions made ,
YES ! that's the feeling I'm having now. haha.
btw.. GET WELL SOON Jun..
I don't wanna see a sick Rudolph XP
at least be a healthy Rudolph la XD
With love,
Jacq.

Cameron

Everybody Make Some Noiseeee~!
Cameron it is.
Let the group pics do the talking .
The Hot-ness of us swiped off the cold weather in cameron .

Obviously

Obviously the reason for not blogging is BUSY !
hahaha
I have been trapped in piles over piles of home works just as school begins.
Forgive me people,
You won't know how it feels unless you're studying in a class like mine with teachers that are SO responsible .
Yes.
" Home works are for your own good because the more you do the more you understand. " Said by most of the teachers who step in.
Yeah yeah yeah. I get the point.
then some of the teachers say " You are in 5 Belian !! Sure you all are smart and hardworking "
hahaha.. well..
That's too early to judge us by our cover.
The truth behind this ' smart ' class is...
We're just like all normal teens.
We love to play too.
We study hard and we play hard.
so... CUT Down on the home works please !
Give me some rest.
Ciaoz ~